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I was brought up attending catholic school and required to attend church every Sunday whether I wanted to or not. For the longest time in my life, I was filled with the usual fear, guilt, shame and a deep longing to know the truth. Somewhere in the 90’s, I picked up the book Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue, Book 1 by Neale Donald Walsch. It was practically screaming “read me” when I saw it on the shelf. I couldn’t put it down and I read it in 2 days and I think I may even had read it 2 or 3 times. For the first time in my life, life made sense. I was able to revert back to the deep inner knowing I had as a child before I went to catholic school in first grade.
From there, I had a huge thirst for all of the new age knowledge I could possibly get. I read books by Doreen Virtue, Ester Hicks, Deepak Chopra, Louise Hay. I became interested in pendulum dowsing, energy work, had new age music cds, attended yoga, meditation sessions and new age gatherings. I went through soul retrieval and a past life regression(more on that in a later post). I’d like to say I have created a spiritual toolbox that I can reach into when things get rough.
Around 2010, after a too long of a bad relationship and one year of therapy, I was bound and determined to find my way out of the mess and “get it”. I picked up Eckhart Tolle’s The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment book and purchased the cd. I listened intently, everyday for weeks. One day, my significant other tried to pick a fight with me as was “normal” for someone to do when they are an emotional abuser. I was unreactive.  I knew I was done and I didn’t want to “play” anymore. I could tell he did not understand my lack reaction and shortly after that episode I was strong enough to get him to move out. I was both elated and scared. I had a home to take care of by myself but I had learned to trust the universe and knew I would be ok.
After this occurrence and my newfound freedom, the new age thirst for knowledge I had known for so long came to an end. I still like to listen to Ester Hicks and have recently discovered the channelings of Bashar. I still believe in Bach flower remedies, gemstones, energy therapy etc. but they are not at the top of my “to do” list. I live more in the now than I ever did and I see how all of those books I was reading were to get me back to me. I’d like to say my spiritual journey began with Conversations with God and ended with The Power of Now. I stopped defining myself as a seeker and realized that all I ever needed was within all along. Though life is a not always a bed of roses, I am able to give myself permission to create peace within myself if I so choose on a daily basis.


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Welcome to my very first post! If you are familiar with the song by Led Zeppelin entitled “That’s the Way”, you may understand  the tagline I have chosen.  I am approaching 50 and have come a long way in life as we all have at this age an older.   I plan to ramble on about many things and what I have learned along the way… my upbringing, relationships, pets, spirituality, body image, employment etc.

What I am sure of at this time in my life is that anything I used to think was important really isn’t. If I do not resist life, it flows beautifully.  Looking forward to putting my thoughts into this new blog.

Thanks for reading!

And yesterday I saw you standing by the river, And weren’t those tears that filled your eyes, And all the fish that lay in dirty water dying, Had they got you hypnotized? And yesterday I saw you kissing tiny flowers, But all that lives is born to die. And so I say to you that nothing really matters, And all you do is stand and cry……..